May 2013
46 posts
I just wrote for an hour, pulling teeth to extract the words buried within my stubborn lips. And I wrote, wrote, wrote. I have nothing to show for myself now that I’ve discarded it. I care naught about the context of my writing any longer because Mania has taken hold, digging into the skin. Goodbye, Low. My mother’s malady has found me at eighteen.
I lay awake, roused by the gentle sunlight peering through my curtains. The mattress is plushy and soft under my sore body and I’ve tucked the cool covers between my thighs. I can hear my friends’ sleeping near me, their rhythmic breaths on the floor beside my bed and although I feel nothing but platonic for these two fellas, I’m happy to have company. Company in this loneliness is always welcome,...
“It is so much safer not to feel, not to let the world touch me.”
– Sylvia Plath (via epikhi)
Tantalize (v.)
vocab-ysk:
To torment with, or as if with, the sight of something desired but out of reach; tease by arousing expectations that are repeatedly disappointed.
“What torments of grief you endured, from evils that never arrived.”
– Ralph Waldo Emmerson (via true-i-talk-of-dreams)
“My image of the ‘ghost,’ including everything conventional about its appearance...”
– (via sacreamour)
Misery
My only company
My only friend
And in her silence
I meet the end
She whispers words
I cannot hear
But I still feel her
Drawing near
She’s all I’ve got
My only love
He’s gone away
My little dove
But wait, just wait
He’s back again
But then he says
I’m just your friend
Then misery, whoa
Here you are
I missed you so
You went too far
I’m...
“Women who are too sexual aren’t taken seriously, and women who aren’t sexual...”
– (via etherale)
April 2013
1 post
Night
There’s a call in the night
A spectre’s chant
Who beckons me
To hear his rant
He calls to me
And whispers my name
He rips off my mask
He knows my game
I scream and I cry
I pray and I pray
This chanting of his
Will lead me astray
I’m all better now
Look how I’ve healed
I cry as I know
My fate is sealed
He plasters the title
Calling me whore
He tears my...
